Had a pretty good morning, running errands and doing housework. I was supposed to go to a Work Pininic but just don’t feel like mixing with people I don’t know and trying to hide my feelings. They seem like pretty nice people, but I never mix work with pleasure at all! So to the grocery store to pick up goodies to cook for tomorrow since my son is on the way home. Which brings me to the quote, hubby and son are coming home for a bit and I’m just not in the mood. Hubby isn’t staying for long, but I just don’t feel like putting on the wife face right now. My son is on the road driving from Texas and to tell you the truth I don’t know how I feel about this. Usually I’m so happy and overjoyed, but now I just feel kind of sad. I was told by his PO person to not fuss with him because he is going through enough, but hell he put his self in this situation and I’m still mad as hell. I mean I fought hard for him not to become some product of the system like me and his damn dad. Being a mom is tough, but I made it easy for him to just breeze through life, or least I thought that I had. Oh well I know he was going to make mistakes, I just didn’t want it to be this stupid shit. Hubby just walked in and the pretend game begins, pretending that I don’t want to break down and cry. Pretending that nothing is bothering me, when I just want to die inside. I’m happy my son is coming home, maybe he could help me with some healing even though he doesn’t know how sick I am. So I will go downstairs and make this huge Sunday dinner for tomorrow and watch him stuff his little grown face. I will admit I didn’t really have lots of cash today for groceries, but it felt so good buying the things he loves to eat (cookies). Hope all of you are enjoying the weekend and getting some much-needed rest. Stay tuned…….
Ms. Fran (Depressive Diva)