I Don’t Want To Leave!!😞

I don’t want to leave this beach at all, found it hard to sleep because we are leaving in a few hours. New Year, same brain and I wish I could leave it here!!! I’m looking out at the ocean and wondering what’s on the other side. Is it my sanity? Is it that dream I’m suppose to accomplish?  Hmmm still so confused…now I have to go home and face what I left in 2016. For the last couple of days, I didn’t have to think about anything. All seemed so perfect down here, no depression, no decisions to make, no medication. In the morning it all comes back and I hate it! I scrolled down my timeline on FB and everybody turning over a new leaf, hell I wish it was that easy. I’m going to try my best to make some changes this year. I really want to start with my eating habits, I cut out drinking only to eat myself crazy. But that’s it, that’s what I want to change! Yeah I know that doesn’t seem like much, but to me it’s a lot. I have gained tons of weight and being at this beach just made me think of it more!!! Lol  thank God it’s to chilly to put on a swimsuit. Gosh, these have been the best couple of days. I think I may put getting away more often on my to do list! It really helped me mentally, no negative thoughts or voices in my crazy head. Oh well I better get some shut eye before I have to pack. Chat soon….

Ms. Fran 


5 thoughts on “I Don’t Want To Leave!!😞

  1. nkdwhtguy says:

    “…..my timeline on FB and everybody turning over a new leaf,….” It’s easy for them to announce they’re turning over a new leaf, don’t be discouraged…..you probably will succeed before they do. I don’t blame you for not wanting to return from the beautiful place you are vacationing! 🙂

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