Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

Having Hope After a Bad Day With Depression | The Mighty

https://themighty.com/2017/03/hope-bad-day-depression/

So glad I’m not alone in feeling this way, some days I’m and the next I’m down! This week has definitely been a down week! Feeling like I can’t go on, then the next week shows up and I’m back up and running! So exhausting 😔

Ms. Fran

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Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

It’s Friday and Guess What?? I’m tired….

Good afternoon all, it’s Friday and all I want to do is stay in bed. I was thinking about not coming to work, but I thought about my pitiful paycheck, lol!!! This week was hard, much like most of my weeks. I’m so tired of being tired, I have no energy at all today. The wind is blowing outside, I just wanted to stand there and let it pick me up. Pick me up and blow me some place other than my life. I look like crap again today, my house looks like crap and I have no energy to fix me or the house. Can you believe a difference a weekend makes, last weekend I was so full of life and today I feel like hiding under the covers. Hubby is coming home today, so that means hiding the sadness away. Tucking it under pretty panties, curls, and makeup! I’ve become such a master at hiding my true depressed self. I hate he has to suffer what I’m going through. I guess I’ll have the 6 shots of vodka, lol he probably would enjoy that side of me!!! Well hope you all are having a wonderful Friday…chat soon!!!

Ms. Fran😊

Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

5 quick ways to ground yourself when anxiety hits – Confident Life

http://www.confidentlife.com.au/5-quick-ways-to-ground-yourself-when-anxiety-hits/

Pretty good read, never thought of some of the things she describes be to do! At this point I’m willing to try anything!

Ms. Fran

Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

Just Making Through the Day!

Good evening good people, finally took some time to sit down at my desk to check emails and stuff. Physically my body is just so tired, I’m dragging through out the day and can barely keep my eyes open. Emotionally I’m no good either, just on this roller coaster ride of emotions. It’s finally Thursday and the week has been draining as usual, can’t keep my mind focus on work or life. My feet, back, head, shoulders and brain hurts. I’m just the walking dead, with no life left in me. I feel like my body is physically here, but mind is some where across the globe. It’s like I’m looking down on my life, like some out-of-body experience. To tell you the truth, I’m sick and tired of just surviving life. It feels like the months are moving fast, and nothing has made me want to get up in the morning to live another day. Now, I know why some people walk around in that Goth look! On the real I feel like wearing nothing but black everyday until my life gives me  some reason to wear colors. Life  shouldn’t be this hard, I can’t believe God just put me here just to barely survive. Trying to juggle life, work, being a mom and wife is pushing me closer and closer to the edge. I’m so busy trying to pretend that I’m fine for everyone, but that’s taking too much effort. The constant whirlwind of emotions, obligations and responsibilities makes me feel like I’m beyond busy. I’m in survival mode, going about my day with that fake smile knowing I’m living under tremendous stress. To you on the outside, I know I look more than capable of handling shit but it’s getting harder and harder. I have so much I need to get done, but can’t find the energy to go on. I really want to thrive, I really want to smile for change and actually mean it. Oh well I’m home now, maybe I’ll have a glass of wine, ok 2! Lol the bottle!! Chat soon…..

Ms. Fran

Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

How These Psychologists Are Prioritizing Mental Health Care For Black America

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2017/03/24/how-these-psychologists-are-prioritizing-mental-health-care-for-black-america_n_15662970.html

What a great article, we as black people have to do better at spreading the word about mental health in our communities! Love the skit these two do, they do a great job at bringing awareness to our communities. Check it out!!!

Ms. Fran

Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

On A Lighter Note 📝 

With everything I have going on these last two days, I forgot to mention something good I decided to do. Now, y’all know I’m trying my best to stay positive and keep my spirits up. So this weekend was good, but just one thing kept bothering me! When it came time to go shopping, I dreaded this moment. Any other time you couldn’t pry me from a store, but no more! I have been so stressed out and since I quit drinking so much, I then turned to food. Long story short, my ass has gotten fat!!! I tried on dozens of outfits and just felt so disgusted with myself. I’m only 5’0 and I weigh a 182 lbs. Now most of this weight is in my belly and midsection, not to mention my huge breast. So basically I’m to short to be so chunky, now as I turned to the mirror I knew it was time to do something about this. Of course the guilt and shame comes in, how did I let myself go? With so many things going on inside my brain, I can barely think straight so I just eat. Well I searched the internet and found this ‘Fat Flushing Water’. It’s suppose to burn a little belly fat, lol let’s see how it works. I have been afraid to buy a scale because it will only confirm I’m fat, so I don’t know how I’m going to measure myself. I have also cut out sweets, beer, and alcohol. I don’t know how long this will last, with the state I’m in now but I’m willing to try anything at this point. Seeing myself in those damn 3 mirror dressing room, just made me so sad. (They should be banned) Stay tuned….


 I thought I looked cute in my dress, but it was an Xlarge and I felt huge! Hope this water can help me on a path to better eating!

Ms. Fran