Still in shock about the news we received yesterday, I can’t imagine my son leaving me! No matter how hard I try to see the positive in this, I can’t or don’t want to. I know God has his hands in this, but just can’t for the life me understand what He is doing? I ask for one week of peace and this is what I get! Smh this is why I can’t allow myself to get happy about anything. This just puts me in a funk, now all I can think about is losing my son. I can’t imagine losing a child. I just got to find some way to cope with everything that goes on around me. Life can’t be this bad all the damn time!