Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

What Your Orgasms Say About Your Health

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/glamour/what-your-orgasms-say-about-your-health_b_16409528.html

Sex and depression my next book, not only does your mental health screw up your mind, it affects your sex life as well!!! Great article!

Ms.Fran

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Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

State of Mind Episode 1: Where we are as a nation

http://www.cbsnews.com/news/mental-health-where-are-we-uncharted-state-of-mind-episode-1/

Man this was a great look into our nation and how Mental Health is being treated. So many like myself and families are fighting the same struggles. No one should have to go broke to seek treatment, America should be ashamed. Mental Health is a real illness just like cancer, sad it’s taking the world this long to catch up! 

Ms. Fran

Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

Up Thinking as Usual😔

It’s my favorite time of the morning 4 a.m., and lately I get up but I try to stay off my phone. I’ve had so many things to write in the moment, then I decide to just remain positive and see how I feel in the morning. So far it has been working, trying to get my mind free and clear of all negative thoughts, but that just means I suppress it. I suppress the thoughts, then my stomach hurts, my body just feels physically ill. Of course then I wake up tired and irritated. Tired from trying to keep these things all bottled up, hell it’s not working. I feel myself drifting back into my dark ways, hell I wonder if I ever left them behind. 

I been celebrating Mental Health Awareness Month by telling my story, but can barely keep it together. It’s just like me to look out for others before I take care of me.  Spreading the word, while feeling like such a mess. I have had some good days, but I swear it’s getting harder and harder. Been having the suicidal thoughts again, which scares me more because I really feel bad just thinking about it. So I continue on, masking how bad I feel inside. I start to feel selfish, because I look at so many people who have it worse than me and wonder how they make it. I’m losing my shit, I just want to stand in the middle of street and yell, “HEY LIFE PLEASE LET UP”!!!! I’m really losing my shit, I feel like I’m trapped in a little room sitting Indian style like a child. With the room closing in around me, no escaping, no lights, just there with no way to move. It’s getting harder and harder to talk with my husband, he isn’t encouraging at all. I don’t dare let my son see me this way, because I have to be strong for him. Talking with friends is a no no, because I definitely don’t won’t to burden any of them with my constant problems. Been waiting all week to hear from a new doctor that takes my insurance, so I’m just out here without my meds losing my shit. My sleep patterns are all off again, I don’t want to go to work. I just want to crawl in bed and stay there until this episode of my life plays out. I really don’t know what’s worse over thinking, or feeling so strong about my life and what a disaster it is right now. I’ve even gone back to listening and reading scriptures everyday. Just anything to keep me lifted up, I hate the way I feel and really wish just for a little life would let up. Well I’m going to finish getting some rest, had a good cry for the first time since last week. Hopefully this rainy Thursday will turn out ok! Chat soon……

Ms. Fran