So it’s raining out and I’m feeling a little bit sad, but happy! Happy I’m going out with friends tonight for dinner, nothing fancy just enjoying each other. I really need this company today, because I’m about to fall apart. Well have the date of when my grand baby will be here, although I’m totally excited, I’m also so sad. I had hope to be in better position financially, hell and mentally. I just was hoping to be this fabulous, rich, powerful woman by now. I hate my grandson has to come into this world, looking at the failure I’ve become. He deserves so much more, he also doesn’t need to have his fathers fate being handle by some judge. I’m just a mess over this!!! But then I’m sooo happy, because I can’t wait to see his cute little face staring up at me. So I ask again can you be happy and sad at the same time????? Chat soon!!!