Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

A Little Self-Doubt This Morning😔

Good morning, I’ve been missing the last couple of days due to a nasty summer cold. It had down and in the bed like usual. So I managed to get up this morning, still feeling a bit off, but I need to get some stuff done. As I got up to walk the pup, this wave of self doubt just came over me. Voices in my head telling me I’m not good enough, I failed, and things won’t get better. See I’m feeling really bad because I wasn’t able to make the trip with my son to see my grand born. It hurts me to my core, once again he needs me and I can’t be there. So I did a little fasting this week, praying that things would turn around but it didn’t. I wasn’t able to make the trip, and no amount of praying got me there either. Now I’m not upset that my prayers weren’t answered. I’m more upset with myself, because I didn’t didn’t have things in place financially to go out there. It’s all my fault and nobody eles’s. My son shouldn’t have to share his special day alone. Since I can’t be there, I hope he doesn’t hold that against me. I’m going to try and throw myself into work, so I can get it off my mind. Just really low today, just want to stay in bed with the covers over my head. This is the worst feeling….oh well I guess this too shall pass! Chat soon

Ms. Fran

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