Well I took a little nap, got up to my hubby sitting in the chair looking at his phone. I was in total shock, I didn’t even know he was coming home so damn early. 😒 I usually try to be up and dress before he comes home, so I can at least look decent. So again he caught me with my head scarf and one of my ‘big momma’ house dresses. 😂 Now, the guilt sets in! I’m kind of embarrassed to have him see me laying in bed all the time, but I can’t help it. Physically my body is just hurting, and I’m exhausted by the end of the day. I know he wants the sexy housewive who walks around in heels all day, makeup on, hair done, and no clothes. Hell, I’m just not her this year. I’m still struggling with getting my confidence back, so it’s hard for me to see myself like that anymore. *sigh* Another thing this illness has taken from me, my sex drive and appeal. Yeah..yeah I know that might be what the kids call (TMI), but hell it needs to be said. I wonder how many of you all who suffer from depression, anxiety, etc. have a probably in bed??? lol don’t all answer at once!!! I mean talk about how this illness makes us physically tired, so how the hell can we think about sex??? This has been on my mind for a while and currently I’m researching some ways to overcome this sluggish mood I’m in. Lord knows I don’t want my man looking other places for things I can do at home!!!! 👊🏾😉With that being said…stay tuned for my ebook coming out soon!!! Sex and Depression: When he wants To, but you Don’t!! If there is anything you would like for me to talk about please feel free to email me, firstname.lastname@example.org! Everything will totally be confidential, I just know I’m not alone here…chat soon!
Feeling a bit iffy today, my body is killing me so bad and I’m just exhausted from cleaning one house today. Ended up going to emergency last night, because the pain was unbearable. Felt like I was the walking dead, could barely drive, or sit for long periods of time. This pain is no joke, I finally decided to seek help because I was taking so many pain pills and that wasn’t good. So the doc refered me to specialist and I have to make that appointment asap. In the mean time he gave me some stronger pain pills to take during the day, this should help the pain until I’m able to go to the appointment. I’m also in a nasty mood as well today, not sure if that’s because I’m feeling so bad, or something else. My mind is wandering all over the place today and that’s not good. Think I’m going to lay down for a bit, maybe I’ll be in a better mood then. Hope you all are well, chat soon….
So not sure why America can’t get it together on Mental Health!!! We so damn far behind….disappointmenting😒