Wishing you all a great week!!😊
Good morning all, wow Monday is here and for the first time in a while I’m a little blue. Nothing major has been going, life is pretty much ok and I’m feeling all festive. The holidays are approaching fast and I can’t help but think of my son, thinking I only have a little time left with him before he is off to jail. Gosh…this is still so hard for me to imagine. My baby boy, is going to jail! The time seems to be going so fast, I hope it’s this way when he goes back there. How will I get through this? Will I get through this? I’m seeing my therapist today and will address these things with her. I feel so sad and happy at the same time, I’m happy because I’m busy as ever with my business, but sad because I feel guilty. Feel guilty for moving on with my life, while my son is about to have his freedom taken away. As I watched the super moon last night, all I could do was cry. I feel so sad inside, but holding it together for my son. I’m praying I don’t go back into that dark hole, praying God sees us through this rough patch. I know he has to take responsibility for his wrong doing, but my God this is the worse feeling in the world. This is the one time I can’t help my son out. I feel like the worse parent ever, didn’t mean to be a ‘debbie downer’ this morning. Chat soon….
Its Sunday night and I have finally laid down for the night! It’s been an awesome weekend. My Clemson Tigers won the ACC Championship. I Finally got the decorations up, did some crafts, and managed to check some emails. The house looks like a winter wonderland, xmas music 🎶 going and all seems well. At least it should be….I can’t help but feel so sad that I will starting the New Year off with my son going to prison. Today all I could do was cry, I’m just in a sad mood tonight. I’m wondering will I be ok during these 10 months, will he? How will his mind be after this? Tonight is the first time in a while that I’m really worried. I know God has his back, but he’s my only child. How did this happen? Why? Have I come far enough out of depression, only to go back down that dark whole. Will this send my recovery crashing down? I just have to keep praying, a little Christmas miracle would be so lovely right now. Hope you all are well, chat soon….