Well I’m suppose to be working this morning, but my client forgot to leave the key so here I am. Here I am, sitting at my computer a little upset with myself. Upset because I don’t have a backup plan when things like this come up. Financially I can’t afford to stay home everyday, and I’m mad because I don’t have much saved up to do so. So of course, instead of feeling positive today, I feel like a failure. How did I get to this point, I use to be able to manage my funds so well. Good grief…I can’t when for losing sometimes, but I’m just going to be grateful I have a roof over my head and the lights are on. I just know now it’s really time to make some drastic changes in my life, to be able to afford to stay home. I love working for myself, but I think I may have to take a second job just to get myself back together. Hopefully when I finally get this projects done, money will roll in. I know that I will not be perfect, but I know I will get better. Life has thrown all sorts of things at me, and I have dodged most of it. Oh well I guess I’ll get some things done around the house, decorating the outside for fall. I love this time of the year, the leaves are changing and the mornings are cooler. The smell of pumpkin spice in the air, and leaving the windows open at night. So off I go, have a Terrific Tuesday…chat soon!!!
Oh Monday. I could complain about you being here so soon again, but I won’t! I will make today a productive one. I won’t think of all the negative things that popped into my head as I started writing this post. Just hoping this week is great and I can finally get some of my projects off the ground. So let me just focus on what I’m grateful for, I’m grateful for God waking me up again this morning. He has more faith in me than I do myself. When I continue to dwell in self-doubt, He’s always right there rooting for me. I’m grateful for my family, and thank God for them. I’m grateful for the little I have, because so many others have lost so much. I’m grateful for Monday, even when I dread getting out the bed in the mornings. So today I choose to be grateful, because I’m learning God doesn’t increase you if you’re not happy where you are. I will admit, I’m having trouble just mediocre and feel like I’m destined for greatness. I guess I just have to wait until the universe steers my way. I believe if I continue to see Monday as some traumatic life experience, I will never be able to get my life together. And, it turns gratitude makes your life happier and healthier. Oh Monday how grateful I am to see you….