Therapy Day Yesterday😌

So I forgot to mention I saw my therapist yesterday. As always I was feeling pretty good after I left her. She knows just how to continue encouraging me when I’m just on the tip of self-doubt. I explained to her, how good I was feeling. On a scale from 1-5, I explain to her that my anxiety was at 2 and depression 1. I can’t help but feel like I lied just a little. I’m feeling really anxious about my son being in prison, some days are better than others. It’s the days like a lonely Sunday that I miss him more, or when I have something stupid to tell him. I just need to see him, be able to look into his eyes, to see from my own mom perspective if he’s really good. I know he’s just keeping me out of the loop sometimes to keep me sane. His bday is tomorrow and I’ve been having these labor pains in my back. Ladies; am I the only one who goes through this??🤨Wierd yes I know!! I know my therapist could see right through me but she did her best to steer the conversation to positive talks. Oh well, I thank her for helping me alone and putting me on the right path to healing. Chat soon…

Ms. Fran


Why African Americans Don’t Seek Health Care?

There are different reasons to this answer this question, but the two major reasons are described below:

  • Lack of knowledge and misunderstanding

There is great misunderstanding about mental health in the African-American population. It is due to lack of knowledge as many people think that the mental health consultation is a sign of weakness and they feel ashamed for seeking help. Some even believe it’s a punishment from God and thus consider not seeking help from a doctor, but a church. Most in our community think we can just ‘pray’ it away. As a result, their conditions tend to worsen over time. This then ruins relationships, work life, and their life in general. To avoid this, we have to make sure all of our peers seek the information they need.

  • Misdiagnosis

According to recent research, one-quarter of African-Americans seek mental health care and are usually misdiagnosis. Usually most doctors in our community don’t take our symptoms serious, we are told to go home and in my case, I was told to pray about it. I was also told that black people don’t need those drugs in our system. How foolish? This has a negative influence on our lives and leads us to distrust the professional healthcare system and workers. Most of us just couldn’t care less to seek the help, because we are constantly misdiagnosis. 

Thus through proper knowledge, eliminating the negative stereotypes, and constant conversations we can reduce fewer suicides. It is our duty in the African-American community to guide our love ones when we see them suffering. 


Why African Americans don’t take Mental Health serious?

When it comes to mental health, African-Americans are no more different from the rest of the population. They have just decided that mental health isn’t worth discussing or seeking help. Without the proper mental health treatment we can not live a proper life. Seeking help shouldn’t be taboo, but it is in our community. African-Americans are likely 20 more times to suffer from the disease compared to our caucasian brother and sisters. Any one can develop a serious case of a mental health issue, it’s just more common in African-American community. So with that being said, we don’t seek help because we have lack of knowledge about mental illness, we lack health care, and the fear of judgement keeps us from getting diagnose You can read more on this in my e-book on Amazon!


Mindfulness and Mental Health


If one has to explain Mindfulness in a sentence, it means being completely and absolutely present in the current moment. Mindfulness has become an instrument in the field of psychology;it is widely used these days in order to treat people suffering from various mental illnesses. How does it help?

  • It Shows People a New Perspective

When someone is suffering from mental illness, they usually have a very negative attitude towards the whole world. Mindfulness helps keep one in the moment and encourages them to have a different outlook of any situation. It also encourages one to have a positive outlook about one’s self. A therapist may suggest writing out affirmations and reciting them. Most therapist also offer breathing techniques to help with anxiety. 

  • It Teaches People to How to Live in the Moment

Most people who suffer from mental illness, usually are depressed about something from their past, or anxious about their future. It encourages you to feel no matter what this too shall pass, therapist may teach you self meditation, show you mini-mindfulness exercises and techniques. Most of these excercises can be done at home by yourself like coloring a mandala, going on mindfulness walks, listen to meditation without words. Using radical acceptance also helps you stay in the moment, accept the things you can’t control.

As someone who suffers from mental illness, I found all the these things helpful. The walks and breathing techniques were really helpful, I was able to focus on my beautiful surroundings. Mindfulness will help you establish better concentration, you will observe the flow of your inner thoughts. You don’t need to be some fancy meditator, just set aside about 10 minutes a day and go with the flow.

Ms. Fran


Some Days are Better than Others!

Sometimes left to myself I get kind of sad and low, my husband for once notice I wasn’t feeling happy today. Some days are better than others, today isn’t that day! I miss my son so much and being so far away from him makes it even worse, I just still can’t wrap my mind around him being back there. As I sit here typing and crying my little eyes out, I keep looking at all of his things in the closet and wonder how did we get here? I know it isn’t my fault, because I raised him well. Just how did we go from a boy scout uniform, football uniform, army uniform, to a prison one? I swear I’m doing so much better than I imagine I would, just the thought of not knowing what’s going on between waiting on emails and calls is pure HELL. I don’t wish the way I feel on my worst enemy, this isn’t fun. My cousin who son was murdered told me, “at least you get to see him”! I know where she is coming from and feel so bad that my son is living, but he’s living behind bars like an animal. I didn’t raise some dog dammit, my heart hurts like hell. On the bright side, glad hubby is watching me and feeling my pain sometimes. He came home with the most beautiful flowers, so something good is coming out of this situation. Chat soon….

Ms. Fran



The truism about this subject matter falls within the contextual terms of “depression’ and ‘anxiety’ before proper proceedings on the subsets of the act of mindfulness, let us define the state of mindfulness and know its prerogative link with depression and anxiety . From the English advanced learner’s dictionary, it defined mindfulness as an act of being aware. However, this form of awareness can come in two forms consciously or subconsciously. With this explanatory views let us decipher the meaning of depression and anxiety. Depression   in psychotherapy and psychiatry is a period of unhappiness or low morale which lasts longer than several weeks and may include ideation of self-inflicted injury or suicide while anxiety is an unpleasant state of mental uneasiness, nervousness, apprehension and obsession or concern about some uncertain event. Be that as it may, these two wonderful definitions are linked with mindfulness which has a base in the cognitive faculty, the practice of mindfulness and its salient help to depression and anxiety. A human mind is filled with activities of the past, present and future as it tries to unravel many mysteries or to fathom the reason behind his failure and success stories, that is when the mind begins to suffer from its negative or positive result. When anxiety occurs in a man as regards to achieving an important task or objective, perhaps if this objective is not achieve after a whole lot of brain work thus depression sets in.



It’s all about moving on and finding purpose

Injustices do happen and in prison you would find number of cases of those people who don’t belong to it but you can’t have control on each and every situation.  Everyone wants to embrace freedom but some unwanted situations and circumstances twist the wheel of life! Don’t forget what is forgotten as you have the tendency to turn garbage into gold and it is never too late to shape your future with one’s talents. So moms, while it can be really harsh and painful (we can’t even quantify it) but don’t allow clouds of fear and uncertainty to overshadow the positive sunshine! Every situation in life is meant to teach some lesson and moving ahead is the key!


I’m Up😞

Haven’t been up with thoughts on my mind for sometime. Sometimes I think being a mother is so hard, then the next I think I got this! Heard some disturbing news about my son and I didn’t react very well. I think my sweet Ralphy (my dog) isn’t feeling well and I’m starting to feel a little anxious. Went to docs on Friday and got a refill, she ask how my anxiety was doing. Hell I thought I was feeling ok, but I’m having them more at night now. I also been having urges to drink 🍷!! I really don’t want to break my little fast, but my son just really makes my nerves bad. Things have been going so good lately, I can’t understand where all these crazy thoughts are coming from. I’m bored….,like extremely bored. I have got to find something else to do to occupy my time, as if I don’t have a lot of projects already. Hmmm, I don’t know 🤷‍♀️ chat soon….

Ms. Fran


Day 2: A Mom is Sentence Too😔

Well day two is down as I marked with the orange marker on the calendar 📆. I have decided to check the days off on my wall size calendar in my office. Last night was pretty hard, only heard his voice for about 5 seconds. He sounded ok, not his jovial self. I didn’t want to ask many questions, I know he has to be pretty tough back there. Lord that worries me so much, he has never been in this type of environment before. He said he did meet some black people back there, funny how Mexican men are so racist against black men. Hell do they realize they are being oppressed too. That just scares me to death. I was only able to get a few hours of sleep with the help of my sleeping meds, then I was up rest of the morning. Didn’t really want to work today, but knew I had to get off my ass. Laying around the house isn’t going to bring him home any faster. Besides I prayed to God to be working again, so I’m not going to let Him👆🏾down. I’m so glad I did, it took my mind off of my son and I managed to do some laughing with my client. So today was pretty good, got a glimpse of a couple of snow flurries and my son called this afternoon. We spoke a little longer this time and he explained to me how the procedures work back there. Man it’s like I’m doing the time with him. I wonder if the justice system really thinks about that, I mean not all of those people back there are hard core killers. You would think they would make it easier to see him. Oh well I’m constantly thinking of him, and really wish I could trade places. Until then I will keep praying for him, chat soon!

Ms. Fran

To My Son

Author: Amy R. Campbell

Oh, how the years go by,

Oh, how time can certainly fly.

From once just a thought in far away dreams,

now into my arms and in my eyes gleam

the presence of you.

Your laughter and smiles,

which go on for miles,

warm my heart and soul.

You’re growing up so fast,

as I wish each moment with you to forever last.

My little boy will someday be a man,

and right by your side I will forever stand.

I will pick up the pieces when you fall.

I will hold your hand and help you stand tall.

And when the day comes when you are on your own,

never feel that you are alone.

No matter how near or far apart,

I am always right there in your heart.

Always remember whatever you go through

that no matter what, I will always love you.


Well I Made it Through the Week!!

Happy Holidays ya’ll, it’s Saturday and I haven’t gotten any shopping done for the rest of my friends and family. I have decided to just shop online and be done with it. My anxiety is too much for the crowds out there in the malls, but everybody looks so happy to be spending all their damn money, lol! Well I manage to make  it through the end of the week without falling completely apart. Both of my groups this week were very helpful, and I had dinner with my Ivory my sweet friend. He constantly lets me just rant and go on without telling me to shut up, lol! I’m trying to keep really busy as the time counts down, I have some orders for bracelets, I’m putting together a new FB group and working on lots of new things for 2018. I was even thinking of hosting a little late night dinner with my mom and sister, but that idea just went straight pass me. I really don’t want to be alone this year, I feel like if I’m left alone I will melt down. I need some laughter in my life, but my mom and sister work my damn nerve. The more I’m around my mom, the worse I feel. I don’t  know if I mentioned that I hired her to work with me in the afternoons twice a week. Once again trying to take care somebody when I’m fortunate enough to share. She really needs the extra cash and I try to get her out the house more, but I just can’t bear to be around her for too long. I love her to death, but when I see her life style I’m just so depressed. She’s only 63 years old and acts like she’s 75, mom doesn’t come her hair, put on clothes, or even get out and date. It makes me sad, that I have one parent I’m taking care of  already and now I feel like I’m doing the same with her, just wish she would get herself together. I keep thinking if I’m constantly around them, I will never be more than I am right now. You all know my story, and that I have started doing things a lot late in life, but I don’t want to be pulled back in. Don’t want to be pulled in to that, ‘I’m just ok life’! I just want so much more, and I’m not going to let my circumstances hold me back. They just seem the same way from year to year, and I’m just so scared that they want to let me go. I told my hubby that I wanted to find someone or my sister to take care of dad, so me and him can move to another state. The only thing is dad probably would be crushed if I did that. That’s another topic, I feel so stuck with him even though he’s not living with me anymore. Oh well not going to bore you all with my sadness. So wishing you all a great Saturday, chat soon….

Ms. Fran