Days: 8-9 A Mom is Sentence Too!

Just got off the phone with him and he was very upbeat, considering yesterday day he got his release date. November 9, 2018 my birthday month! This would be the best gift ever to see my son put this shit behind him. I email him constantly even when I know he can’t email right back. I take the phone every where I go, because I never want to miss his call. Some days are better than others, but today I was pretty bummed out. I just really hate him being back there! Oh well it’s a long weekend so he will be able to see his little boy. That will put a big small on all their faces, can’t wait until next month so I can see him too.

A little pic of my sweet grand baby 💙💙💙

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Wednesday Thoughts!

How do you pray for a child, when you are battling demons in your own mind. This morning my son was on my mind real heavy. I constantly try to encourage him, but I don’t know if I actully believe what I’m saying in my own mind. Also I haven’t been such a good role model in the “bring your child to God thing”. This makes me sad, because he constantly sounds like me, when somebody was telliong me to pray my depression away. So I have to stop for a minute and realize he doesn’t want to hear that crap either. I should know by now, that hearing people say that makes it worse. Now what, how do I encourage him without sounding like the people I hated hearing from. How do I let him know that eventually things will work out in the end? I really don’t know what to do, because I was in this place just a couple of months ago. Oh well all I can do is give it to God, I’m not going to worry my pretty little head over something I can’t control. I have to know my boundaries, I just don’t want to go backwards and I don’t want to see him hurting. Chat soon….

Ms. Fran