Well I’ve heard this quote several times in my dark moments, but never believed it was true! Man….what a difference a month makes!! I do believe life is tough and damn right so am I. I was in a bad place, couldn’t see my way through but here I stand after all that. I still have my moments, but I believe it’s how you react to the moments that matters. So when life gets tough, stay the course because it will be over soon. I don’t know the hour or day, just don’t give up!!! Have a Terrific Tuesday and find the good in today, big or small!!! Chat soon…..
Rest in heaven Mr. Williams, because of you I’m brave. Brave enough to seek help when I needed it, brave enough to yell my story, brave enough to tell the world that mental illness is real! Many Blessings thank you!
How do you pray for a child, when you are battling demons in your own mind. This morning my son was on my mind real heavy. I constantly try to encourage him, but I don’t know if I actully believe what I’m saying in my own mind. Also I haven’t been such a good role model in the “bring your child to God thing”. This makes me sad, because he constantly sounds like me, when somebody was telliong me to pray my depression away. So I have to stop for a minute and realize he doesn’t want to hear that crap either. I should know by now, that hearing people say that makes it worse. Now what, how do I encourage him without sounding like the people I hated hearing from. How do I let him know that eventually things will work out in the end? I really don’t know what to do, because I was in this place just a couple of months ago. Oh well all I can do is give it to God, I’m not going to worry my pretty little head over something I can’t control. I have to know my boundaries, I just don’t want to go backwards and I don’t want to see him hurting. Chat soon….
Just strolling through my timeline and ran across this post! Man there’s nothing like losing interest in things you thought were so exciting once before! 🙂
Good morning all, I’m up and ready to get some things done. I have all sorts of new things in the works and while I have the motivation I’m going to keep it moving. So hoping the 4th was good for you all, mines was down right boring. Now, let me explain….last year this time and a couple of months ago I was in a bad place. I was super jealous and envious of my social media timelines, seeing what everyone was doing, the parties/cookouts, the vacations, or just hanging with family. It made me really sad and I couldn’t for the life of me understand “why” couldn’t that be me? See depression and anxiety plays tricks on your mind. You want to do all those things in your brain, but your body can’t move. So I would just cry and pull the covers over my head, but not this year. This year I was ok without celebrating the 4th, no bbq, no friends, no neighbors, just me and the hubby. He spent most of the day getting his truck ready, and I was experimenting in my new laboratory (kithchen) lol! Plus I’m still fighting this summer cold I have had for going on 2 weeks, so staying in was all I wanted to do. But guess what??? I wasn’t sad! I wasn’t jealous! I wasn’t feeling guilty! I felt like a damn grown up. See I have lost so much time dealing with my depression, that I have to get on the ball and make up those years this disease took from me. Meaning I have to work my ass off, to build my account back up like it use to be, I have to continue therapy, this will give me the courage to be out in the world again. And if that means not vacationing, or partying the rest of the year then I’m ok with that. I want to travel to places in the future that I haven’t been, maybe even come visit some of you overseas, lol! I want to have no worries when I’m vacationing. I want to be carefree and wild!! So yesterday was a good day for me, and I feel really good about it. I know that this is the meds talking, but I’m ok with that. Finally my brain isn’t stuck in gloom and doom mode. Small steps people…so again hope the 4th was good to you all, I have some work to get done. I promise to reveal very shortly….chat soon!
Happy Sunday guys and gals, hope it’s a good one so far. I finally got out of the bed, and walked into my office to get some things done. Yesterday was such a good day, didn’t want to ruin today by laying in bed all day! So about yesterday, I decided that I was going to channel my energy into some DIY projects. Now, I’m pretty creative when I want to be, but lately it’s been such a struggle. Well with that being said, I was thinking about things I wanted to sell in my online store, things that I actually use and things people will buy. Products that are made with love with my on little fingers. So I have decided to make my own organic all natural products we use everyday, and the first thing I made was homemade lip balm. Yes, I know I’m excited too, 😃 and it came out perfect! I didn’t know how easy it was and how fun it was to make. I researched several ways online, things that are healthy and good for you. Then I was on my way to Hobby Lobby, oh what fun I can spend all my money in that store🤑! I had so much fun looking around and exploring all the things I could be making. Long story short I brought all the products I needed and headed home. Since being diagnosed with depression, I hear a lot about essential oils and what they can do to make your life a little better, so I brought tons of them. I played around with and decided to make peppermint and citrus 🍊 balm!!! It smells amazing, peppermint essential oil gives off a cooling sensation and has a calming effect on the body. The orange oil also has that calming effect and is used for feelings of peace. Now, how cool is that? Right now I need peace and a little calming. Yesterday was the best I stayed out practically all day, not taking a nap once. I felt great, looked great, and just had ball. I know I need to do that more often. So here’s some pics of my finish product, they smell great and I think I did a pretty good job. My friends are going to be my test bunnies, so I package them all nice and pretty!! Hope you like, chat soon!!!😊💕
Man I’m feeling all kinds of emotions today… this should be the happiest day of my life and I can’t feel! The only feeling I have is failure. I keep thinking how did it get to this point???? Oh well!