Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

Some Days are Better than Others!

Sometimes left to myself I get kind of sad and low, my husband for once notice I wasn’t feeling happy today. Some days are better than others, today isn’t that day! I miss my son so much and being so far away from him makes it even worse, I just still can’t wrap my mind around him being back there. As I sit here typing and crying my little eyes out, I keep looking at all of his things in the closet and wonder how did we get here? I know it isn’t my fault, because I raised him well. Just how did we go from a boy scout uniform, football uniform, army uniform, to a prison one? I swear I’m doing so much better than I imagine I would, just the thought of not knowing what’s going on between waiting on emails and calls is pure HELL. I don’t wish the way I feel on my worst enemy, this isn’t fun. My cousin who son was murdered told me, “at least you get to see him”! I know where she is coming from and feel so bad that my son is living, but he’s living behind bars like an animal. I didn’t raise some dog dammit, my heart hurts like hell. On the bright side, glad hubby is watching me and feeling my pain sometimes. He came home with the most beautiful flowers, so something good is coming out of this situation. Chat soon….

Ms. Fran

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Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

A NOTE FOR MOMS DEALING WITH INCARCERATED CHILD

It’s painful to know their story…

Mass incarceration crisis in US is known to everyone and while everyone is interested to know the frequency and number of people incarcerated, very few people think about families and communities they leave behind. The emotional weight of losing your child and seeing him/her behind the bars shatters the mothers and family emotionally. This emotional weight gets heavier because of added responsibility of financially supporting, caregiving and maintaining the household.

The atmosphere in the prison is strict as anything. Ask those mothers, who satisfy themselves with one monthly phone call from their incarcerated child. ‘It gives peace to know that he is surviving’, this is what mothers have to say! While mothers feel broken from inside but they never stop to inject their child with encouragement and faith in God to never give up!