Brave even in her death!! 🙏🏽
Well it’s about 4 o’clock my time and I just got out of bed to walk the dog in the hot heat. I did manage to run some errands this morning to pick up gifts for my dad and hubby. That’s pretty much it, been in the bed since then. I’m tired, exhausted, and my body is aching. I look like a mess, my eyes are red from yawning all day. Sleep seems to take over me during the day, then at night I’m wide awake with my thoughts. I wake up feeling like a zombie, because I’m forcing myself to get things done. I feel hopeless, it’s very overwhelming sometimes. I take a look all over social media and see everyone enjoying many activities, while I’m stuck in the house. Blinds are closed, room is dark, and I’m under my covers like it’s 40 degrees outside. I have so much I need to get done, but I can’t! My tiredness has taken over my body, just cooking breakfast this morning seemed like a gym workout. I know it’s hard from some of you to understand, I hear things like, “go to the gym”, or “everybody is tired, push through it”. The truth is I can’t, physically can’t. My feet hurt while I’m wearing bedroom slippers, walking up and down my stairs is a damn task. I feel like a 600lb woman, locked up in my room, to the point where my son is like “get up and get it yourself”! Hubby will come home in a couple of hours, and I’m in the same clothes I had on before he left. He will think I stayed in bed all day accomplishing nothing. Truth is I actually got out today, but was so exhausted from that so I laid back down. I know I must sound like a broken record, but I don’t know what else to say. I don’t wish this life on anyone at all. Everyday it’s a constant struggle and I’m exhausted from trying. This feeling of tiredness haunts you. I pretend to be up looking productive, but then my brain is talking out loud, “like go to bed”. I’m not going to bed because I’m lazy, believe me I was never like this before. As father’s day approaches, I feel hatred for my dad. I feel like if it wasn’t for his stroke in 2014 I would be fine. Being his caretaker was hard for me, and I don’t see any reward for helping him. I mean I did out it of the goodness of my heart, but at what price? I now have no life at all. I’m honestly that tired, I can barely continue typing now, because my eyes are heavy. I know it will get better someday, until then I just have to deal…..chat soon!!!
Ms. Fran (exhausted diva)
Every day it’s a struggle to just exist!!! Good read!
This is the last thing the mental health community needs!
Well it’s about 4:30 p.m. my time and I just woke up from a little nap. I hate starting the week of being unproductive, I got up and walked the dog to get some fresh air. I didn’t sleep good last night, so by 12 p.m. I was exhausted. My body is in constant pain, the meds are working on my brain but not doing much for my body. All I want to do is lay down and rest, but that means I won’t get any of my projects done for the week. So I have decided to get up come to my desk, and finish up some of the task I had to do on the computer. I needed a little motivation, so I read a book of quotes a co-worker gave to me a while back. Trying to motivate myself to get these projects done. I want to have a yard sale so I can clear all this clutter in my closets. Also the extra money will come in handy for baby clothes for my soon to be new grand baby. Yes as the days are narrowing down, I’m ready to see my new grandbaby. Been picking up little pieces here and there, but ready to go on a shopping spree for my sweet boy. So I hope these quotes find you all well, let’s motivate each other to make this a great week. Chat soon…..
“May your troubles be less and your blessings be more, and nothing but happiness come through your floor.” Have a Great Week
You’ll Never Change Your Life Until You Change Something You Do Daily. The Secret Of Your Success Is Found In Your Daily Routine- John C. Maxwell
“There Are Seven Days In The Week And Someday Isn’t One Of Them.”
“Whatever you think about grows in your life.”
HOW TO BE HAPPY- decide every morning that you are in a good mood
“Your mind is a powerful thing. When you fill it with positive thoughts, your life will start to change.”
I’m so please this pastor decided to help and speak up about mental illness in the black community.