Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

30 Days of Gratitude Day: 14

Gd early morning, I’m up and ready to start my day! Ok…I’m still laying in the bed, but you get the idea! Lol!! My mind is awoke, but my body is staying comfy under my blankets. I don’t have much work today, so that gives me a chance to be creative. This is my birthday week (birthday on Sunday), so I’m getting prepared for my trip to Texas. I’m so thankful this year that I have some extra funds to travel. The last time I was there was bitter since it was the court date for my son. So this time we are celebrating me and eating thanksgiving dinner really early, I wanted to make sure his last couple of months at home were good. It still breaks my heart that he has to go to jail, but I know that God will see him through. I just know there is something good coming out of this, oh well not going to dwell on that now. Anywho…so I’m ready to get up and get to shopping. So hope you all have the best Tuesday and stop and ask yourself, “what are you thankful for today”!? Chat soon…

Ms. Fran😊

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Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

30 Days of Gratitude Day: 9-13

Wow I’ve been a busy little bee 🐝 these past couple of days. I’m waking up on this Monday morning feeling so thankful and blessed. All I can do is cry, cry tears of joy! Life last year this time and before, was dark, blue, and cloudy. I had no where to turn, suicide was constantly on my mind, I just felt life gave up on me. I was in a bad place in my mind and soul. My body was hurting, could barely move out the bed. Constant anxiety attacks, hair falling out, and I didn’t care to eat. I hated myself, my life, and God. I couldn’t believe he was allowing this to happen to be me. But God…and only God can change things.🙌🏾 Today I’m thankful for those struggles and past hurts! I’m thankful for friends that continually support through my ups and downs. I can’t express to you all how incredibly thankful I am..hope this Monday finds you all well. Chat soon…

Ms. Fran😊💕

Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

30 Days of Gratitude Day: 7

Wow 😊I had a great Tuesday, things have just been falling into place…finally the universe is giving me a break! Today I had the opportunity to speak about my books and the projects I have in the works (link coming)! I manage to bring a high paying client into my cleaning business, and all because I prayed without ceasing. I prayed during the times I didn’t understand, and during the times when I felt He forgot about me. Although all of my prayers haven’t been answered, I know now that miracles happen everyday. God knows I have a rough couple of years, and really needed Him to take me under His wings. I can’t thank Him enough for not leaving me hanging. I know now that my teacher is quiet during the test. So today I’m thankful for answered prayers, and for the people He is putting in my path. Constantly singing His praises 🙏🏽

“The more you thank life, the more life gives you to be thankful for.” -life’s cheerleader 

Ms. Fran

Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

30 Days of Gratitude Day 3:

Well this isn’t my list, saw a post and said, “damn that about sums it up for me today “! I’m pretty blessed and continue to thank God for not giving up on me. I’m especially thankful for becoming a Gigi (grandma)! His mom always sends me the cutest pics of him!!! I can’t wait to see him in a couple of weeks! Hope Friday is going well for you all….chat soon!

Ms. Fran😊

Couldn’t leave without showing pics of my grandson!!!!!


Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

30 Days of Gratitude: Day 2

Omg is it Friday yet??? My body is just dragging along, so I would like to say that I’m so grateful today for the person who invented coffee. Yes!!!! Coffee, now I’m not that big on coffee, I just started drinking it, but my gosh it does something to me. I woke up this morning moving slow like a turtle, then I poured a cup of coffee and BOOM!!! I was ready to conquer the day. lol so that’s what I’m thankful for today. Now, on yesterday I wrote down the 5 things I was grateful for so here we go:

  1. So thankful for my struggles
  2. Thankful for my meds
  3. Thankful for my therapist
  4. Thankful to be smiling again
  5. And last but least, thankful for music

These may seem kind of crazy to some of you, but for those of you who have been reading my blog know my struggle. I had to go through the bad stuff to come out of it on top. With the help of the right meds that regulate my brain, and the therapist who cares enough to actually listen. The first lady was just horrible, and a little judgemental. Aww, to be smiling again…it really feels good to see my smile in the mirror now. For a long time all I could see was this sad face with baggy blood-shot red eyes staring back at me. No hope in my eyes, all lost and gone. Lifeless eyes, feeling unworthy and ugly. No longer do I look that way, and lastly I’m so thankful for music. Music that keeps me dancing around the house and singing without even noticing it. I’m having a little karaoke party to myself, and my pup is the audience. lol!! This is why I love this quote, because I hoped for once to be happy again. Things are not perfect, but lord knows they are better than they use to be. I don’t desire much, just for me to learn how to count my blessings during the storm. This list may seem kind of crazy, but it was all I prayed for. On that note, hope you all were thinking of some things to be grateful in your day. No matter what it is, be grateful because someone is wishing for a lot more. Chat soon….

Ms. Fran

“My life isn’t perfect, but I’m THANKFUL for everything I have”- Daveswordsofwisdom

“Trade your expectation for appreciation and the world changes instantly”- Tony Robbins

Psalms: 100:4 “Enter his gates with thanksgiving, and his courts with praise! Give thanks to him; bless his name!”

 

Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

30 Days of Gratitude… Day 1

November is upon us, which means the holidays are right around the corner. With that being said, instead of waiting for Thanksgiving to be ‘thankful’, I have decided to figure out something to be ‘thankful’ for the rest of the month. I have decided that maybe seeing the good things in my life, might out weigh the bad. I have come so far these last months, and really feel ‘thankful’ God hasn’t given up on me. The more we focus on what’s right in our life, the better we will feel. I think if we are grateful for those good days, then the bad ones should receive a little love. I mean if it wasn’t for the bad days, I wouldn’t be able to overcome shit in life. My life wasn’t as bad as I thought, but the way I reacted to those things made it seem worse. I’m learning so much lately, and can’t say enough how glad I am that God was on my side. So what are you all ‘thankful’ for? despite the hard days, is there one thing in a day that you can say, “ok I’m thankful for that”. Hell I don’t care if it’s,” hey I showered today”….I know all to well what life is like when depression takes over your mind. So I will start off day one by: writing 5 things I’m ‘thankful’ for today and will share them with you all later in another post. I would love to hear from you all as well. Thanksgiving isn’t the only time to be ‘thankful’….chat soon.

“Give thanks for all of the opportunities that even our struggles bring”-Unvieled Wife

Ms. Fran

Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

OH MONDAY!

Oh Monday. I could complain about you being here so soon again, but I won’t! I will make today a productive  one. I won’t think of all the negative things that popped into my head as I started writing this post. Just hoping this week is great and I can finally get some of my projects off the ground. So let me just focus on what I’m grateful for, I’m grateful for God waking me up again this morning. He has more faith in me than I do myself. When I continue to dwell in self-doubt, He’s always right there rooting for me. I’m grateful for my family, and thank God for them. I’m grateful for the little I have, because so many others have lost so much. I’m grateful for Monday, even when I dread getting out the bed in the mornings. So today I choose to be grateful, because I’m learning God doesn’t increase you if you’re not happy where you are. I will admit, I’m having trouble just mediocre and feel like I’m destined for greatness. I guess I just have to wait until the universe steers my way. I believe if I continue to see Monday as some traumatic life experience, I will never be able to get my life together. And, it turns gratitude makes your life happier and healthier. Oh Monday how grateful I am to see you….

Ms. Fran

Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

Just Because I’m Depressed doesn’t mean I’m Not Thankful Dammit!

Good evening all, it’s Sunday and I finally made it around here to my office to get on the computer. I know I have been missing lately, just haven’t had much energy this week. The pup was still sick on Friday so I missed work, then had a horrible time sitting to get my lashes done. Came home Friday night and just wanted to lay down and never get up, some people are so stupid now days. Was feeling sick myself but had to sleep, because I had a lunch date with my friend who is getting married in a couple of weeks. So I got all dressed up and we headed to Charlotte for her last dress fitting, then off to lunch at the CheeseCake Factory. I had a wonderful time, so glad I got out the house for a bit on yesterday. She look so beautiful, couldn’t help but cry. Got home and crashed, my body just can’t seem to handle anything at all. I’m so tired of being tired all the damn time, so today I decided to skip church (feeling guilty about that) and got some work done outside. I haven’t had anytime to get out there, ok I’m lying I have the time just to damn tired to go out there. The yard is starting to look like I feel, and that’s just not like me not to have the yard all pretty. I just got so much on mind, the last thing I want to do is think of happy things and then have life come crashing down around me like usual. So I did manage to buy a couple of flowers for the front and put out some lawn furniture on the front porch. I cooked a big dinner, a little something different today: cabbage and sausage, jambalaya, and sweet corn spoon bread. Yes it all sounds delicious and looks that way as well, can’t wait to sit down for dinner. Well while I was outside one of my neighbors decided to come and speak to me, I use to consider her my friend but she is a little shady, sort of like a family member I know. What I don’t have time for is fake ass people at this damn age, anyway she proceeded to say things like “stop being so depressed, you have a lot to be thankful for”. “You shouldn’t be depressed because, you have your family around you”. “Cheer up and be thankful”, well you know this pissed me off to the fullest, because please believe I’m thankful for everything I have. I can be thankful and depressed at the same damn time. Piss me off, being depressed doesn’t work like that dammit! I’m more than thankful and thank God everyday, but my mind doesn’t work the same anymore. How dare you think I’m only depressed for one reason and all of a sudden I will be able to snap out of it. Shout out to those who are healing, but I’m not there yet. Shit not for the lack of trying, it’s just a slow process and I’m going to heal on my own damn time. Yes I’m thankful for my boys around me, but I don’t see life-like I use too. I can’t believe people are still so stupid about mental illness, damn you wouldn’t tell somebody with cancer to “cheer up because you have family around”. Hell you would be breaking out the prayer books and bringing food. I don’t like how I feel, you think I like sleeping all day, having mood swings, lack of appetite, and sometimes drinking myself silly to cover the pain.  It takes everything out of me to hold down my damn job, and for that I’m proud of myself. I know things will eventually get better, but in my brain right now I just can’t dig myself out this tunnel. I don’t see the light like some of y’all do. That doesn’t mean I’m not thankful dammit. Shit I’m mad because I know life can be better than this, I just haven’t gotten that far yet. I will get there in my own time, and I promise there will be a lot of people who wish they had stuck around to help me out. If you thought I was a *BITCH* before, watch me when I’m healed. With that being said, I’m about to enjoy the rest of my day in the bed watching movies. Hope you all have a bless week!

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Feeling Thankful 😃

I started thinking about blogging sometime ago but was afraid to! Then one day I just set it up, so thanks to you all for reading about my unstable life without judgement! I recieved 200 likes the other day and was so excited. I’m not where I want to be but will be there soon!! I have enjoyed reading all the post and look forward to interacting with more of you soon! I’m thankful you all find my life just as amusing as I do!😄 Happy Blogging!

Ms. Fran