Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

A Little Friday Pick Me Up!!

“There is only one way to happiness and that is to cease worrying about things which are beyond the power of our will” -Epictetus

Things don’t always go the way we plan, and I know all to well what it’s like to be a failure. But God….He has a different plan for our lives and we just have to go with the flow. Point blank we can’t control everything, so we should sit back and relax. Life is emotional rollercoaster, so enjoy this crazy ass ride!!! 

“You change the way you look at things, the things you look at change”-Wayne Dyer

Ms. Fran

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Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

A Little Friday Pick Me Up!!

“There is only one way to happiness and that is to cease worrying about things which are beyond the power of our will” -Epictetus

Things don’t always go the way we plan, and I know all to well what it’s like to be a failure. But God….He has a different plan for our lives and we just have to go with the flow. Point blank we can’t control everything, so we should sit back and relax. Life is emotional rollercoaster, so enjoy this crazy ass ride!!! 

“You change the way you look at things, the things you look at change”-Wayne Dyer

Ms. Fran

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Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

Day 3: A Mom is Sentence Too

The days seem long as hell, I know it’s only been three days but in my mind it feels like forever. I take my phone every place I go even in the shower, yes in the shower!! I don’t want to miss his call, hearing his voice somehow soothes me. We spoke today for the maximum 15 minutes, it’s totally annoying hearing that woman on the phone counting down your time. I now feel bad for the times I brushed him off because I was sleep, or depressed. Working all day helps me out, it’s the nights that worry me the most. He sounded a little better today, I sent some money to his girlfriend to put on his account to get some shoes and snacks. Can you believe his father hasn’t called me yet for the address or to find out how he is doing???? This baffles me so freaking much, because the one time my son could use his dad would be now. Thank God my husband has stepped up in his place, how stupid can you be? Oh well not going to dwell on his stupid ass for too long, hell my son could care less about him. I just can’t see how you don’t think about someone you brought into this world and call yourself a man. My heart aches for my son, I know he made his bed, but I’m still his mom. He will forever be my sweet baby boy…..chat soon!

Ms. Fran

Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

Happy New Years Eve and Happy Anniversay to Me!

2017 is officially coming to a end, as I celebrate my 13th wedding anniversary. We have seen many ups and downs in our marriage. Times when I just thought it wasn’t worth fighting another year, but here we stand 13 years strong. I must admit every sense I started getting myself on track I was able to understand him more. He still doesn’t understand the mental illness, but he does understand that I need my space when I’m having an episode. He not only provides for me, he also tries to go out his way to make life happy. So to those of you who are fighting to save your marriage, and believe it’s over after the first year….take it from me, look in the mirror and see if you can do better. Tonight I have been invited to many places, but have to admit my son is on my mind real heavy. I believe he will be ok, and that he will get through this strong. I just worry about his mindset and how much he will miss his son. I’m going to do my best to keep his spirits up, and step in to help Gen (mom) with my grand baby, I still can’t fathom him his life going this way. So everybody I’m wishing you all a Happy New Year and many blessings. For those of us who suffered so much, may God give us double for our trouble. Chat soon….

Ms. Fran

 

Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

Well I Made it Through the Week!!

Happy Holidays ya’ll, it’s Saturday and I haven’t gotten any shopping done for the rest of my friends and family. I have decided to just shop online and be done with it. My anxiety is too much for the crowds out there in the malls, but everybody looks so happy to be spending all their damn money, lol! Well I manage to make  it through the end of the week without falling completely apart. Both of my groups this week were very helpful, and I had dinner with my Ivory my sweet friend. He constantly lets me just rant and go on without telling me to shut up, lol! I’m trying to keep really busy as the time counts down, I have some orders for bracelets, I’m putting together a new FB group and working on lots of new things for 2018. I was even thinking of hosting a little late night dinner with my mom and sister, but that idea just went straight pass me. I really don’t want to be alone this year, I feel like if I’m left alone I will melt down. I need some laughter in my life, but my mom and sister work my damn nerve. The more I’m around my mom, the worse I feel. I don’t  know if I mentioned that I hired her to work with me in the afternoons twice a week. Once again trying to take care somebody when I’m fortunate enough to share. She really needs the extra cash and I try to get her out the house more, but I just can’t bear to be around her for too long. I love her to death, but when I see her life style I’m just so depressed. She’s only 63 years old and acts like she’s 75, mom doesn’t come her hair, put on clothes, or even get out and date. It makes me sad, that I have one parent I’m taking care of  already and now I feel like I’m doing the same with her, just wish she would get herself together. I keep thinking if I’m constantly around them, I will never be more than I am right now. You all know my story, and that I have started doing things a lot late in life, but I don’t want to be pulled back in. Don’t want to be pulled in to that, ‘I’m just ok life’! I just want so much more, and I’m not going to let my circumstances hold me back. They just seem the same way from year to year, and I’m just so scared that they want to let me go. I told my hubby that I wanted to find someone or my sister to take care of dad, so me and him can move to another state. The only thing is dad probably would be crushed if I did that. That’s another topic, I feel so stuck with him even though he’s not living with me anymore. Oh well not going to bore you all with my sadness. So wishing you all a great Saturday, chat soon….

Ms. Fran

 

Mental Health, Self Care, Depression, Anxiety

Monday Motivation!

Good afternoon, I’m up and about! The day has started off great for me and I have a little pep in my step today. I still have so much to get done, so I need all the energy I can get. Hope this day so far is going well for you all, if not let me encourage you!

  • Let’s look back at where we were last week, good or bad and be proud of our progress.
  • Step outside the box, who cares whose looking, then give them something to look at!
  • Don’t indulge in negative thoughts, (a note to self)!
  • So what I’m doing it wrong in your eyes, hell to me I’m slaying.!

Ms. Fran